With me, I've taken all kinds of paperwork with me. Notes from our retreat, board meeting, lab orders, reimbursements...It's going to be a long Friday.
So now that I'm sick, I'm unable to do my blood tests and my 24-hour urine collection...again. I want to be fit, and healthy so when the committee reviews the results, there will be no doubt that I am fit for donation. Nothing hurts me more than putting our lives (mine and my aunt's) in other peoples' hands, and just.... waiting. I appreciate that they are taking my well-being so seriously, but I feel that my aunt's health should have more priority at the moment. She will eventually die if she doesn't get this kidney, and I will continue living with a "what-if" that will forever haunt me.
It wasn't until recent years that I've learned how much my family means to me. Up until recently, there was nothing I would just give my life up for. Now, I know, I'd suffer a thousand deaths before my family feels pain...well some family members (we can't like them all that much can we?)
If I could wish on a shooting star, find a 4-leaf clover, throw a coin into a wishing well...all I'd ask for on this Earth Day/Good Friday...is by the end of the summer, to be able to donate and save my aunt.
Now listening to: GLEE - Get it Right
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